Find it

Find your light. Don't lose sight of it. Thats what I lost. Don't make the same mistake.

Why?

I wanted to know why our world is so terminally distorted. Where did that distortion come from? Why there are people who are unconsciously evil? Why people don't know that their evil hurts others. Why is humanity an existence which only conflicts with itself? Why are there people who rule and those who are ruled? Why do we wound each other? In spite of all this, why do people go on living like they do?

Have you any idea?

No one person in specific. But the person reading this right now. What are you doing? Why don't you get up and do something that fills your heart? Why do choose not to change? You may think that you are something in this world, but when it comes down to it, you are nothing to everyone. You can't move on from whatever is wrong in your life. Past relations, family, friends or no friends, all differ from person to person. You will NEVER truly be connected to someone else. You might have experienced similar situations as one person or find similar interests, but the same words and images will always differ. You are you. You are missing something in your life that you will never get. Bliss. True bliss. If you can say that you have a satisfied heart or you can imagine having one in time, i gawk at how primitive and immature you are. Your heart will never be satisfied.

Can't find a reason

Why must I continue to get hurt from this? It isn't fair. I'm a sucker for sweet words and that was my downfall. Thank you for temporarily being my motivation for nearly everything, the reason I pushed through any pain. Thoughts of you were all I needed, but now those thoughts are only pain and neglect.

Things haven't been working out too well

Things aren't what i expected. I always have this feeling something bad is gonna happen. Well since "harry potter is for faggots" (according to my communist father) i won't be seeing harry potter at midnight. Thats making me pretty upset. WHY ARE MY BLOGS SO POINTLESS. Goodnight :)

Here goes nothin

We met this pro at the hot tub tonight. He seemed legit, but COULD be a total ass so I'm not so sure. I can tell you this though, i want to catch a flippin rattlesnake now.

Sometimes, i just don't feel good enough. Ya know?

Vengaboys

I've seriously been in love with them for like 9 years strong. I can't not listen to them and smile, so it helps when I'm sad. Kinda like right now, but just kinda. I'm planning on watching a movie about a gay couple today with tucker. Call me gay, we fight. I'm noticing that I'm becoming SLIGHTLY more rugged. I don't like it one bit. We say just wait it out and things will get better, but really, life isn't about waiting. You gotta act. I want to get at the world. I should put pants on because my legs are getting cold, peace :)