Find it

Find your light. Don't lose sight of it. Thats what I lost. Don't make the same mistake.

Why?

I wanted to know why our world is so terminally distorted. Where did that distortion come from? Why there are people who are unconsciously evil? Why people don't know that their evil hurts others. Why is humanity an existence which only conflicts with itself? Why are there people who rule and those who are ruled? Why do we wound each other? In spite of all this, why do people go on living like they do?

Have you any idea?

No one person in specific. But the person reading this right now. What are you doing? Why don't you get up and do something that fills your heart? Why do choose not to change? You may think that you are something in this world, but when it comes down to it, you are nothing to everyone. You can't move on from whatever is wrong in your life. Past relations, family, friends or no friends, all differ from person to person. You will NEVER truly be connected to someone else. You might have experienced similar situations as one person or find similar interests, but the same words and images will always differ. You are you. You are missing something in your life that you will never get. Bliss. True bliss. If you can say that you have a satisfied heart or you can imagine having one in time, i gawk at how primitive and immature you are. Your heart will never be satisfied.

Can't find a reason

Why must I continue to get hurt from this? It isn't fair. I'm a sucker for sweet words and that was my downfall. Thank you for temporarily being my motivation for nearly everything, the reason I pushed through any pain. Thoughts of you were all I needed, but now those thoughts are only pain and neglect.

Things haven't been working out too well

Things aren't what i expected. I always have this feeling something bad is gonna happen. Well since "harry potter is for faggots" (according to my communist father) i won't be seeing harry potter at midnight. Thats making me pretty upset. WHY ARE MY BLOGS SO POINTLESS. Goodnight :)

Here goes nothin

We met this pro at the hot tub tonight. He seemed legit, but COULD be a total ass so I'm not so sure. I can tell you this though, i want to catch a flippin rattlesnake now.

Sometimes, i just don't feel good enough. Ya know?

Vengaboys

I've seriously been in love with them for like 9 years strong. I can't not listen to them and smile, so it helps when I'm sad. Kinda like right now, but just kinda. I'm planning on watching a movie about a gay couple today with tucker. Call me gay, we fight. I'm noticing that I'm becoming SLIGHTLY more rugged. I don't like it one bit. We say just wait it out and things will get better, but really, life isn't about waiting. You gotta act. I want to get at the world. I should put pants on because my legs are getting cold, peace :)

As the story unfolds

Alright everyone, i forget where i have left off on my novel. So I'll just take you through the middle part.

He was running, but he knew he was not in trouble. YET. He tripped really bad and got a huge scrape on his knee. This would certainly prevent him from running any longer. "Sammi!!!" Parry yelled, and there was a thud. Sammi had fallen face first into a pile of mud. Her hair and maid outfit were ruined. Sammi started at parry, her fuse was short. As always. Tucker, Collin, and King Nick came chasing after parry. Nick look sweet, Collin and Tucker kinda did too. Parry was starting to harbor feelings for the King but was too nerve-racked to tell him. The first thing the 3 others see is sammi in a maid outfit. Nick was so enraged that his slave had abandoned her position in the cell that he threw something very hard. He was enraged. "What is going on here?!?!?!" squeaked Collin. Parry exclaimed "It is not what it looks like! The four of us are cool, right? We go everywhere together!". This had not been true. Parry had simply invited himself to do everything that the cool 3 kids did. Skipping over tre...parry, tucker fired at Sammi. "What's going on? Give me answers slave!". Everyone seemed to tremble at the sound of his voice. Sammi mustered up the courage to tell a story in where parry stole something dear to Sammi and she was only chasing after him. Not....Dressing up.

I wonder if i make make the story end with a classic "scooby doo ending".

I don't have much time...

I'm writing this while my uncle is at the Beer Garden somewhere in the heartland of communism. I've been seriously considering writing a book about dragons and elves and parry hotter. I made the name up myself. Here's what I have so far.

It was 5:00 A.M. in the morning when parry woke up. He was super tired. Just like any dragon super child should be at this time. He hadn't slept for 46 hours because he was off slaying so many pixies. The bastards.... Parry had a best friend named Nicholas Henderson. He was really handsome and realized no one could have what he had. Good looks, two cool friends (only two), and a slave named BONDAGE SLAVE SAMMI. She did household chores for him. Sweet. But back to parry. He's really gay.

And so the story unfolds...

Tell me what you think! :D

So I just killed a bug

He deserved what was coming to him. I'll name him "scooter". Poor scooter, just couldn't scoot fast enough. I've come to the realization that maybe 3 people MAX will read this. Tucker, sammi, and ______. _______ is yet to be determined. Well I really want to go to bed but my current frouple won't stop texting me. Women, they'll be the end of me ;)